Due to all my technical issues, this was actually supposed to be posted on the first.
Last night was a hard one.
I had so much on my mind and heart.
The thoughts of the things not going well was weighing on me I could
barely sleep. My usual quiet time was
LOUD because of my crying out for relief. So many things I am trying to
understand about this walk.
One thing I will never have is the mind of God. When I finally got quiet I felt in my spirit
God was reminding me the cares of this life were not my concern. The burdens I was carrying were of my own
volition. I picked these things up because
I want them fixed.
For years I’ve said and had said to me “God will never put
more on you than you can bear.” For the first time in all my years of claiming
to be a Christian, I get it. The things
I’m carrying are because either I grew weary in waiting or felt God hadn’t
heard my prayers. I’m, unfortunately, a
problem solver and my frustrations comes when I alone can’t fix the problem and
God is taking more time than I want or think I need.
It used to irk me when people would tell me “It’s all in God’s
timing, not yours.”. Another downside to
the marvelous age of technology, is wanting instant answers and instant
fixes. I have even said at times I think
God needs to have my watch cause His timing is out of whack. Especially, when it was the eleventh hour and
my problem had overtaken me. My knees
couldn’t even withstand the pressure.
