GOD the CLEANSER! Start with me!

SO, Lord if this is the call you’ve placed on me, lead me in the direction where I will be able to do this task. I don’t feel worthy, especially when I think of the ones that seem to be keeping me from being where I should be. I suppose the best place is to start with Alexis and her issues.

I want to serve you and I have asked this time and time again. HOW?? With all the struggles I’m facing, how am I going to give you my best. It’s not hard serving an unseen or unheard God, but those who judge on what they see, will not trust me unless I can demonstrate I am the one you are using.

I would love for my gift to be healing, but freeing people is a good thing. We have invited the devil into so many areas of our lives, including me. I have tried to shake some of them, but the hold is much stronger in my mind then in my body.

Then again it is something about me and dreams this last couple of years and God is making me pay more attention to them. I know some of them are for me, but help me to know the difference! Seer of my heart and reader of my thoughts, help me to make the right choices in serving you, Oh God, my savior Jesus!

For this moment we stop in the midst of this tragedy (attack in Paris) to seek God. How crazy is it the God we have pushed out of our schools, government and some of our homes;becomes necessary when something horrible happens and lives are lost? What is upsetting is there are lives being lost at home because of drugs and gangs, but we don’t feel the need to stand against the harm being done to ourselves.

We all know some countries depend on the weakness of Americans to gain wealth. Time to restart the war on drugs, to take it to the throne and pray for our NATION! We are to the outsiders a spoiled corrupt people who indulge in the flesh too much. All the things hidden are now being revealed not just because it’s the work of the enemy, but because it is way past time for real prayer warriors to start asking for the right things.

It’s awful that there are ruthless people all over, but we have let enough into our walls and now they are our own to deal with. I love we are a nation of concern, but it's time now to turn inward and get our houses in order. So my personal quest is to purpose to stand strong in righteousness and proclaim every place I set my foot the demons will have to flee. All of this has to begin within me! Prayer for the world as a whole. More so to direct my prayers to the areas in our nation that have been neglected by even the church. Yes, these places are ugly and dirty, but God is the best cleaner in the universe!

Cha-cha Changes with a Little Pain

I’ve seen many seasons come to an end with the joy of knowing there will be the beginning of a new one. For some reason this season in my life has made me take a long look at where I have been and opened myself to the possibility of where I am going.

My heart is heavy and my eyes burn from holding back the tears. Because I am looked upon as strong, no one sees the hurt that comes with each good-bye. I keep telling myself this change is positive, but in my heart it hurts to think about some of the fractured and broken relationships I left behind.

I’ve become very accustom to change, but just because things change doesn’t mean I am ready to accept them from the start. I will have to adjust. Knowing it’s more about the newness that is coming and looking back I can smile and even chuckle at the times of the past.

I can’t even say I haven’t changed, because I know I have. In these last five years I have changed tremendously. I have learned to not pick up the phone to call my Mom. I have learned some people I love are still bitter and angry about past instances, disappointments. I have accepted, well sort of, my sons are grown and our relationships are very different. (Kind of useless to tell a grown man, even though he came out of you, what to do.)

I’m learning every day to accept that this walk I will have to do solo. I have many people in my heart, some who don’t even know I still care, but in my space they are just not there. I have learned how to be flat broke and still manage to find something to keep going for.

So today, this season of change is not one I wanted, but I know in a very short time I will move onto the next shifting God has planned for me. That’s all for now – need to work on next publishing project. The only thing I know for certain is God will not and has not changed. As the elders used to say – Hold on to God’s unchanging hand!